I am not willing to say what have happend in these two months. I have a hard mental struggle, to make choices.

At the same time I find out that I am just a green hand, so much to learn.

I got a dream last night, I was sent back to the school days, I felt panicky with all the tests, nervous, but the other students could answer freely.

I think over the dream today, I realize that I am afraid of falling behind. This dream reminds me that I should give more time to study, or I will replay the terrible dreams.

Plans can't keep with changes, but who can tell the changes are not good?

 

Every girl has a dream to have a shop of her own, selling books, flowers and so on.

I am no exception. To be a shop owner, I can design it at will, busy at peak time, and do some readings or surf on the internet in the other time. How comfortable it could be!

The only way to start to have a better life is to start.  Information gathering, market survey, site selection, supplier finding..., in a word, quite a lot of preparation! It needs considerable courage to start!

Success or failure, to some extent, it depends on how much efforts you have made for it. Am I right?

I plan to open a shop selling clothes for pets. To start with a shop on the internet. It's an electronic age! Who knows! ^_^

The date today seems some kind of special. But actually, as normal as usual.

Luckily, it's Saturday. It means I can sleep at will, and my eyes will get more relaxation. I should do some washing additionally, clothes and sheets. I don't hate washing like many girls, reversely, I enjoy sanitary work sometimes. I like the feeling to make everything clean, I can get lots of happiness from the done-work.

After washing, my forehead was totally decorated with sweat, some streamed down my face. I found out that the sweat by labor is different from the sweat by hot, the former looks more transparent, even shines.

And then I got on the internet, no good friends on line, I felt bored. Planned to watch movies, but no attractive topics...

Drank a bottle of frozen water, the cold run from the throat to the stomach, I could not repress a shiver, the feeling reminded me the advertisement of kSF cool-black-tea, smiled involuntarily.

Surfing on the internet, I became restless very soon, I felt isolated by the world, lonely. The time was near 11 o'clock, I got hungry, boiled some fast-eat dumplings, 15 in total. Ate it with garlic-vinegar, the last one made me cloying...

Came back to the computer, I was planning what to do in the afternoon. The torrid sun indicates that I have no choice but stay at home. So what to do? Internet? Maybe books.

 

07年07月07日，这似乎是一个可以纪念的日子。

我仿佛在期待着什么，但也明白，什么都不会改变。万物按原轨道行驶，我的生活也是。

庆幸的是，今天是周六，这意味着我可以自由睡眠，我的眼睛也可以得到更多的放松。同时，我要做一些清洗工作，衣服和被单，满满的一盆。我并不像有些女孩子那样讨厌洗衣服，相反，我会很享受那种把污渍揉搓消失的感觉，我喜欢衣服被涤荡后在水中那种透明的干净。

洗完衣服，额头上已布满豆大的汗珠，有些顺着脸颊跌落。我发现劳动的汗水和仅仅因为炎热的汗水有些不一样，前者似乎更加晶莹剔透。

而后上网，qq和msn都没有在线的好友，感觉无聊。想看电影，但没有找到喜欢的主题……

喝了一大杯的冷冻水，从喉咙到胃的冰凉，浑身打了一个激灵，忽然间联想到了康师傅冰红茶的广告，浅笑无语。

胡乱看了网页，心里头却是憋的难受，感觉又被世界隔离了，孤单烦躁。时间快11点了，肚子也饿了，下了一包饺子，数了数15个。就着蒜醋吃，吃到最后一个的时候，开始恶心起面粉皮的味道，赶紧收拾了碗筷……

又回到了电脑桌前，心想着下午该做些什么。望着外面火辣辣的太阳，这一个下午自然又得在屋子里过了。下午该干嘛呢？网络？也许该考虑书籍了。

Really a hot summer!
Thanks to the air-conditioner, I can still enjoy the cool indoors. It's hard to tell it's the men become weak to the hot, or the weather becomes much hotter than before. Sometimes I hate the saying "high technology products"  What they have done is to make men more dependent on them, but less contact with the nature world.
Complaints are complaints, everything looks condemned, it appears to me that I can't live without these high technology products already.
Great pressure or other causes, I can't sleep well these days, I woke up frequently during the nights, dreams after dreams. Really tiring~~~
Anybody tell me how to cure my poor conditions? God helps!